crrunte bssesoin

current obsession:

- Andy Warhol Poparts

- Orangutans

obsessing andy warhol's poparts is normal, but obsessing orangutans is a little weird.

I watched Orangutan Island in animal planet, and i fell in love with them!

awww...aren't they cute?

well, school's out, i'm totally free from all of those effin exams, and i'm going to go to surabaya next week. that's it for today, ok dann tschüss.

firensd

I just hate when i meet my school friends outside school, at malls, parties, or anything. I feel dumb when meet them, usually i will avoid them, making sure that they won't notice me. I met one of my senior's mother earlier today in a party, she said that he is inside the house, and so i didn't come into the house, and begged my mom to come home quickly. thank God he didn't come out of the house and i didn't meet him. I feel stupid. i don't think i have any other good reason why i won't meet my school friends outside school except that i'm too shy.

cahgesn

as you see, i've changed my blog title and my posts titles. it's not really important atually, and it doesn't mean anything, it's just that when i was trying to find a new blog title, i saw this quote from Mark Twain, "I don't give a damn for a man that can only spell a word one way." and the only thing i can think of when i was reading that was the word "spell". and i've scrambled all of my post titles! cool huh? lol.

so bytheway, happy fasting everyone! and i cant help wondering why banyak banget yang jadian di bulan agustus HAHA.

oh and i found this old photo of myself:

omeionts

I have been very emotional lately, i dont really know why. maybe because im fasting. i know, i am not supposed to cry when im fasting, but for some reason i cant stop crying. am i a cry baby? i hope not. argh, i really want to scream, i dont want to break my fast, i dont want to go to hell. please make everything better.

upnordcvieut

i have been very unproductive lately. i really need to make more artworks. i have been running out of stock photos, and all i did today was designing crap argh!

WOOHOO!

IM GETTING A BB STORM!!!

ufture

i have been thinking about my future lately. especially about my future job. i have thought of having a career in the fashion industry, and i am obviously will not be a model. sooooo i think i'm going to be a fashion designer. i used to want to be a psychologist, since i have gone to a psychologist several times. but i realized that i know nothing about psychology. sure i can learn, but thats not the point. being a psychologist is just not what i want. about a several days ago, i read about the fashion industry and im soooo interested. i think fashion is art, and i love art, i have been making arts since i was little. and i want to have a job that i love. and the fashion industry is the only industry with no rules! wow. i really want to be in that industry since there are too many rules in my life. im not a fashionista, dont get me wrong, i love fashion, but sometimes i dont have the guts to wear what i want to wear, so i think it would be nice to have someone wear what i love. oh and i want to buy this book. well it hasnt been released yet but i hope i can read it eventually.

Teen Vogue Handbook: An Insider's Guide to Careers of Fashion

Fashion Designer, Karl Lagerfeld says, "Ask yourself, Are you sure this world is for you? And are you sure you are the right person to survive in this world--the world of fashion, a world with no rules, no laws?"

Vogue Editor in Chief Anna Wintour says, "Do your homework, go online, visit every museum, and intern. You just need to have a love for what you're doing. It's not about thinking that it's the cool thing; it's about really believing in it."